Summer Goal

Well I did it. I finished my most challenging semester in the last two years. I have to be honest and admit that in January I met this semester with great determination to work as hard as possible, but also with plenty of uncertainty. It was almost a test to see if I had enough intelligence to succeed in the pre-health track. After many sleepless nights and excruciating hours of studying, I'm glad to admit that I finished in the top 5% of my pre-medical classes. I've been forced to really lean on God this past year in so many areas of my life. I can't begin to tell you how many times this semester I've prayed, "Lord, I'm walking out your will in my life and you know that I've given my best. I couldn't have prepared better than this. I've done my best to do my part and I'm expecting to be met by you." I've begun to live this prayer out. It's been my semester's motto. If I'm doing my best than I can't be disappointed in the results. With the semester coming to an end, I've been given a month break before my summer classes resume. I finally get a little much needed breather. It seems that as I get older, time slowly has become my largest rival. I can never seem to schedule in enough "Stephen time" into my life. And trust me; I need it more than ever. I've been praying daily that God tell me what to do with my self-building time. Every time I've prayed I've gotten one answer: My heart.


I need to start preparing my heart to become the man I know I'm called to be. I need to get off my mountain and start my process of validation. In my short 20 years on earth, I've spent a majority of my life seeking my validation from others. I've been foolish enough to judge my heart's condition by how other's think of me. No longer will I seek my self-fulfillment through other's opinions. It's time I stop seeking others to validate me. If I want to be a man, a true man, I need to find myself in the Lord. Not in what others think. It might not be the same as studying for Chemistry five hours a day, but it will still stretch me in an area that I really need fixing and validation. I've let people close to my heart before, but it's time to let God closer than anyone. It's time to lean a little bit further. It's time to put a little more of my weight on God. I've learned to trust Him in so many areas this year and now I must learn to do it in a new area. I need to learn how to love correctly, but I must have my heart right before I can. That is my focus this summer. This is my goal. The process starts today. Thank you so much for all your prayers and support. I've been surrounded by the most incredible of people. Have a nice summer.